i’ve almost forgotten

i almost forgotten that i still have a blog.. how forgetful of me! its been a couple of weeks since the last entry and i was wondering what have i not been doing lately.. haha!!

anyway i figured it might be time to move on with some issues, find something to do or find someone new.. its been months since that day and i have been thinking of her every single day. cant seem to forget or forgive myself for all that happened. i did some self reflection during the time, and now i finally realised and accepted the fact that i was the one being unreasonable, that we broke up.. i told someone that its time i should be moving on but i would not be able to let it go, its my weakness and a burden i had to bear. i remember a few nights ago, me and a group of friends were hanging out at our usual huant, we were discussing about “the notion of love”. what exactly is love? everyone shared their view and we had a little debate over it. (we always debate over every topic we have at each gathering..) in the end, we couldn’t get a definite answer to that question. we left it as “everyone has their own definition of love”. i suppose that definition is derived from each individual’s beliefs. i don’t really know mine but some say that ” love is not about possession, but to set someone free.” maybe its time i set her free? i realised that when we parted ways, i did not end it on a good note and i regretted it. i really want to tell her that i finally understood something from it all but i don’t have the courage to face her or talk to her. i’m afraid she migh not pick up the phone, much less meet up.. but i really want to let her know in person that i’ve grown. should i? i don’t know..

~ by -=jiawei=- on August 20, 2007.